Inn of the Wandering Dragon

Today is a sick day, I am curled up at home waiting for my tea to steep (a lovely blend of violet and vervain which will hopefully help loosen whatever is stuck in my windpipe). And since one can only spend so long in a horizontal plane I figured this is as good a time as any to check in.

I admit I hit something of an emotional roadblock this past winter. Between work stress, monetary stress and my previously noted feelings of being overwhelmed with what I saw piling up - I found myself retreating. I had lost motivation & drive. I had lost some resiliency and all I wanted to do was hibernate. Instead I pared things back. I have been trying to focus on finishing off certain projects, as opposed to starting new ones. My stuff-to-do list is slowly shrinking as a result, slower than I would like but at least progress is being made and that feels good. Sadly my dance classes were one of the things that had to be cut for the time being. Actually physical activity in general pretty much fell by the wayside and I am feeling the effects of that as well.

But things have been getting better lately in that I am feeling better about how things are and how I am dealing with them. Maybe it has a bit to do with the season and the lengthening days, who knows? I have started doing henna again and I find my interest in the art form returning. I am already planning to return to dance in September and in the meantime I am getting back to other physical activity (which will go better once I shake this bug). I am starting to look for a new place to live and that will be a welcome change.

Maybe I just needed a break of sorts.